it's 11am and so far i have kept with my unproductive morning routine. i am about to go throw in a load of laundry and then read the new welcome to hell world email i just got. i journaled about yesterday's texts with jess that are bothering me. i'm starting to get pissed about all her pseudoscience bullshit, but i'm also making sure i don't cause strife in our relationship. the pushback i get from her/nate just makes me upset and anxious so i've decided to just let it go. there isn't going to be any convincing going on on either side anyway. but, it is still bothering me nonetheless. bummer.
it's another cloudy day so all i can hope for is a cleaner apartment and lots of mentally stimulating activities. hopefully more than i've been pursuing in the last couple of days. i wanna keep up at it, since it's what i was wishing i had time for while i was still working. now i do. don't get too lazy!
last night i also read too many unnerving things about coronavirus so today it's a little more top-of-mind. trump is doing a terrible job at making sure this gets as least terrible as it can. the worst is still ahead and that's scaring me. i am so thankful that i don't have to be in public at all and that i don't really have extremely vulnerable people in my family anymore. i will say that i am more scared of getting it myself than i was previously. a tiny part of me thinks that my heart and lungs wouldn't actually be able to handle a virus like that on their own. so i'm trying even harder to stop touching my face and i'm washing my hands even more and for longer.
i am coming across some great stuff on the internet, however. it makes me feel a little less bad about spending so much time on it because it really does bring me joy. after i find something good, i think about what if i never came across this! how sad! for example i am learning that i would love to be able to write like these fine people. i also learned about the movie Saint Frances that i will be purchasing from the state theater to stream. i have a feeling i'm gonna be really happy to have learned about that one.
i ended up watching Portrait of a Lady on Fire and that was really good. i also made creamy avocado pasta for dinner but damnit i forgot to take a picture! dillon seems to be passing out early for some reason so i'm going to try to entertain myself into sleepy mode somehow.
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