walking sadie when i first wake up, between 7-8am, have been the best parts of my days lately. those little fuzzies from the tree were glowing and the birds are busy busy busy above us. today i noticed a new little black bird, some robins of course, and redwinged backbirds whose songs i got to identify. like a buzz and a ding. they're cute birds. you really start to miss them all those winter mornings.
listening:
this is how i'm starting my morning. the description is everything. what i would give to be in a cafe in berlin right now...
trying:
i'm interested in making a spider diagram, but i'm afraid i don't have any big ideas that i'm trying to work through right now. i know that's false. we'll see what happens.
day three of isolation journals! i'm loving these prompts, even though they sometimes make me write/think about things i don't feel like thinking about.
reading:
boy am i glad i scrolled back in my inbox and opened the newsletter from jack druce. here's, like, most of it because i have no restraint:
When I was playing lots of Super Smash Brothers with my housemate, occasionally we would land a move that put our opponent to sleep or buried them in a hole, this would temporarily give you a free shot to do as much damage as you could. Neither of us could ever execute a good attack because we were so excited about the opportunity to win the fight that we'd freeze up and start mashing buttons and waste the opportunity. I’m feeling this on a global scale right now. Everything that stops you focusing on your passions has just gone to sleep and the whole world is mashing buttons.
The sweet fantasy of how nice it would be to get fit, or write that novel, or learn Spanish, has shifted from a beautiful dream to a daunting reality. Something difficult you would need to put in your calendar, something that might not be as fun as you imagined. The deeper fear for me is that if I don’t do these things now, when would I possibly do them. I can't do stand-up, I can’t see my friends, I’m not at work, If I don’t do something now, do I have to just admit to myself that saying ‘I’m too busy’ was just a more compassionate way of saying, ‘I don't want to start this because I’m afraid of being vulnerable’?
If you are struggling to figure out how to best use this time. Rather than thinking about what a turbo-legend you will be at the end of this, try to think about how you can enjoy being who you are and doing the things that interest you right now, without putting too much weight on how much it will affect you in the future.
cooking:
just scarfed some leftovers after an hour+ workout with dillon. i can almost deadlift as much as he can!
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