death is long

sorry - i know this is weird.
i think it was this morning while i was driving to work that suddenly the realization came over me that i'm going to be dead for an ETERNITY. this perspective was brought to my attention via the welcome to hell world newsletter, where someone was quoted saying something like, "you'll be dead for an eternity, what's the point of rushing to die?". yes this sounds incredibly morbid but maybe i'm having a tiny existential crisis. dillon's life view is constantly on my mind (nothing matters, life is average at best, there are too many terrible things in this world, etc.) and maybe they're a little contagious. i almost always saw myself as an optimist but in the last few years the knowledge that life is dread has been creeping up on me more often. still, mostly i feel bad for dillon and want him to feel better about his whole existence.
ANYWAY.
i was just driving along and i started picturing what being dead for an eternity looks like compared to being alive right now. then my life suddenly felt very short and it actually made me kinda nervous. like that SUCKS that i will be dead for way, way longer than i'll be alive. life is pretty stupid when you think about it that way, but it also makes you want to care a whole lot about it and do something somewhat important.